As I read through C.S. Lewis’s Mere Christianity for small group this evening, I came upon some profound points Lewis made in the chapter about Hope. It is here in this chapter where Brooke Fraser got her inspiration for C.S. Lewis Song. The following quote (which is used by Brooke Fraser) well sums up this chapter:
“If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.”
Indeed! Such beauty in these words. And God Himself is filled with so much more awe and beauty! I’ve never really thought about the issue concerning our desires. Do all our desires and cravings have a satisfaction? According to Lewis, they do. I haven’t delved into this topic much, but I do know that we are not made for this world, but for our almighty God.
This past week, I’ve been keeping up with Luke, and I came across many of Jesus’ rich, humble teachings. Many, at first reading, I can understand superficially. However, when I read Jesus’ parables of the mustard seed and the yeast (Luke 13:18-21) where Jesus taught about the Kingdom of God in the analogous form of a mustard seed and yeast, I just didn’t get it. I’ve heard and read this passage before, yet I never understood it. Matthew mentioned the time, growth process of the Kingdom, yet I still couldn’t grasp it. This past evening, Xf. Txawj Tuam read this exact yeast parable except from Matthew 13:33, and while listening and paying keen attention to Xib Fwb’s sermon, I got it. I suddenly got it. And the thing is, I know it’s not because of me. It was the Holy Spirit dwelling in me, revealing to me the meaning, which is exactly what this parable is about. PRAISE GOD ALMIGHTY WHO possesses such GRANDEUR then, presently, and forevermore! This brings me back to a conversation I had with Matthew about two weeks ago. Academically, I was at my lowest point since college began. I told Matthew about what I read in Luke the day before, when Jesus was teaching his disciples how to pray (The Lord’s Prayer):
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened…If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!” (Luke 11:9-13).
I’ve been praying genuinely, constantly asking for God’s help and mercy in my life. However, I don’t think I fully understood exactly what I was asking God for. After reading this passage, I was reminded that whenever I ask for God’s help, I am asking for the Holy Spirit, who dwells in me, to work through me in the things I do. This whole quarter, I was not allowing the Holy Spirit to work in me. I kept myself distant, trying to depend on my own fallible and limited abilities, to the point where not only were my academics being affected, but I was forgetting the birthdays of my cherished loved ones (terrible feeling). One knows one’s life has gone awry to some extent when one begins to forget about the most important people in one’s life! Matthew did mention that there exist times where we don’t allow the Holy Ghost to work in us, however, the Holy Ghost also decides whether to work in us. I can read a Bible passage twenty times, and the Holy Spirit may not choose to reveal to me something greater and more truthful until the twentieth time. During the sermon, the Holy Spirit decided to work through me, and I do praise God for that amazing experience. As a human being, I tend to limit my idea of the Kingdom of Heaven as something far away, not of this world. Going back to the Lord’s Prayer, it states “Hollowed be thy name. Thy Kingdom come. Thy will be done.” Let Your Kingdom come God, and Your Kingdom dwells within me and all those who have faith in Christ. Your Kingdom is already here, and it’s prospering over time gradually. Just as the yeast that when thoroughly mixed, spreads throughout the dough, let the Holy Spirit come dwell in our souls, in our lives so that the Kingdom of God will flourish here on earth! AMEN!
Here is the last song that Workers Few lead for worship during the Called by God Conference by HKM in Sacramento on Oct. 23 (Matthew on bass). That weekend was filled with much conviction and faith-prospering, discerning experiences that I can only thank the Lord for, along with all the workers He used.